I am drowning in contempt. About a week ago I managed to not go there, to stay away and feel what I was feeling. But today I did not even try. I'm just mad. I have to back myself out of this because no good is going to come from what is going to come out of my mouth.
And I even started it by asking a question. One that I needed to hear the answer to but one that I knew would be painful. How do you back out of anger? I am trying to see what could come from this pain. So many times, after the dust has settled I can see the good. But it the middle of the whirlwind all I can see is the dirt flying. I am going down a list in my brain of good things God has done that felt really bad at the time. I know He is good and I need to believe that enough to jump off the cliff of contempt into whatever lies below.
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